Captain’s Log, 2026.01

• Bobby Draper.

  • I actually usually think it as Bobby “Fucking” Draper.
  • I spend more time trying to justify to myself why it’s okay to postpone doing than it would take me to do it
  • So now I just do it. Do something. Look up a phone number. Something.
  • Once I overcome the resistance to starting it usually ticks over
  • FOcusing on keeping next steps really, really simple and not overloading myself

• Tried out Elementary OS.

  • Had hoped it might offer a MacOS style keymap
  • Didn’t seem to offer anything over Linux Mint, and I liked that one better so switched back

• Kicked off the Very Big Project

  • here we go
  • not trying to be secretive but still trying to get my head around it
  • but “what if no mouse”?

• Built this website!

  • been playing around with the logs for a while but not actually publishing them anywhere
  • couldn’t figure out what form it should take and didn’t feel good about it
  • love having my own code forge for these kinds of projects, and not worrying about LFS caps, or having a giant corporation hoover up my writing to feed their LLM
    • they’ll have to wait until hit publish first

• Started reading The Body Keeps the Score.

  • Oof.

• Finally coming out the other end?

  • I used to spend entire days just focusing intently on taking my next breath, on surviving
    • realizing that I haven’t felt that way in months
  • I sometimes don’t clench my jaw
  • I actually feel relaxed once in a while? Like in my muscles?

• **Finished watching Star Trek: Strange New Worlds S2

  • the Below Decks crossover was fun
  • a few episodes I bounced off of (Rhapsody) but enjoyed it overall, but not as much as S1

• Started watching Fruits Basket again

  • had watched the first, single season version
  • and there’s a movie now?
  • anyway, really loving this new version, still on S1

• Got a new stereo

  • never had a proper one
  • listen to music constantly
  • in this new place, it’s my movies & my games too
  • had been using some Logitech computer speakers
    • but new TV doesn’t have an analog audio out, just optical and HDMI
      • how much could one cost these days, really?
  • Sony … and Klipsch …
    • happy with the bang for the buck
  • maybe a little guilty for not being more patient and checking out more resale shops first
  • but I’ll very likely have this setup the rest of my life

• Rebuilt the Sherman and Cheryl under duress.

  • it turns out the Pi won’t boot if there is an external USB drive plugged in
  • seems to be a power draw issue, best I can tell
    • can’t boot and spin up the drive at the same time
    • even on a higher power adapter
  • in the process of reformatting the drive for another pass at it I selected the wrong partition and then clicked through the dialog telling me to stop and wiped the primary partition on Sherman
    • I took better notes this time

• Got Jellyfin up and running!

  • moved off Plex, which has been feeling too corporate and pushy and revenue seeking
  • I did purchase a lifetime membership but I just don’t like where they’re going with it

• Mac-ified Sherman

  • link to repository

• Tried out Helix

  • I like it? It’s fast. Really fast, even on this 20 year old hardware.
  • Provides more out of the box than Neovim
    • detects the Rust tooling and turns on it’s built-in Rust support
  • it uses a select-then-act keybinding approach that feels more natural than Vim’s verb-noun approach
  • it seems to be gated by a single core developer
  • for now I’m mainly back in AstroNvim but I’ll be checking in on it now and then
  • no file explorer sidebar
    • I’m visual and like to be able to see the tree
    • The fuzzy finder is very good (and again, fast)

• Installed YARG

  • loaded it up with some previously liberated Rock Band 3 tracks
  • next up: get it working with the drum kit
  • I don’t actually know if I’ll get away with playing in the apartment even if it is an electric kit
  • I’ve done my best to soundproof

• New coffee mug from Scrappy Cat

  • (photo)

• Completed the Assetto Corsa N1 career stage.

  • 82% difficulty
  • focusing on clean first laps and passes

• Started putting my alarm in the other room, just outside the bathroom. In order to turn it off I have to get up and walk in there and then the bathroom is right there so I might as well just get up. I don’t reliably remember to do it so I still sleep in than I wake early but I’m gradually getting better about it. It does work when I remember to do it.

Insights & Advice

• One day at a time. “It is only when you and I add the burden of those two awful eternities, yesterday and tomorrow, that we break down. It is not the experience of today that drives men mad." ([[2023-01-03]])

• Stick to the plan.

• We already won. Cassie and myself. “They” built an entire global society to stop us but we did it anyway. Even if you build a fucking time machine and go back and kill Hitler, in this moment, I won.

Random Links

• The Crew is a fun card game.
• Added the work “schmatonic” to my spell checker. Not sexual, but not platonic either.